This morning, after going shopping I thought that my head needed a little attention.

Having dealt with the outside, hair dye and make up. I wondered how I could deal with my constant feelings that I’m not really allowed to be here. I think that’s why I’m a painter and I write.  I can hide behind.

But, its a problem when I have to go out or be obvious.

Maybe everybody feels like this……

Anyways I decided that as I was taking the ashwagandha pills I should pull myself together as it was no fun when thinking about going out was almost always accompanied by mild anxiety.

I’d like to enjoy this trip and feel free to explore, chat to people and not feel like I shouldn’t be there.

So I’ve a new motto , “my existence matters”, ( as does everyone else’s)

Let’s see if that helps .

I’m looking forward to this trip for more and more reasons. I need a reboot being the latest one. 

Meantime to facilitate painting and writing I’ve packed a journal and a whole lot of painting stuff.

Fluffy kept me company. I think the poor wee dear is pregnant again.

I’m still waiting for the thunderstorm and rain……..

Hurray….it’s wine time. Tomorrow night if all goes to plan it will be wine time in oliveto lucano.

Cheers🍷🍷

Thunder now……and a few spots of rain…