And gentle as a dove. I think I’ve quoted that more or less accurately.  To me it means, “use my brain confidently to be kind to myself……and others.”

There’s  been ” stuff ” going on leading to  waking up at 3am regularly and needing a lot of retail therapy and other distractions so I think engaging my brain is called for. (In the past I’ve let fear make me act in a less than sensible manner.)

Tonight I was wondering if I was drinking too little wine as I’ve cut down by a third….or thereabouts. Huh, I don’t think so!!!!

However I’m taking steps so can’t do more.

I remember in the olden days when I’d get PMT and I thought it was so unfair being at the mercy of hormones.

I don’t know if it’s  normal to feel more anxious when you get older. But I don’t like it.

Anyways enough of that.

I spent quite a lot of today working and ” using my brain.”

Then I went back to the last painting, changed the vase and painted over some of the flowers. Have decided that the biggest problem is the lack of contrast.

But, that’s  it for now. I’ll look at it again next year maybe.

Another 10 small canvases arrived today. It could be that I’ve slightly over estimated how much I can actually paint. I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed.

I discovered one of my Christmas plates for painting was cracked and thought,” Phew! Only 3 to paint!” I think I’ll paint the cracked one for myself. The crack doesn’t show very much.

Writing seems to help me to keep calm or sort out what is bothering me. I thought I’d take a photo of myself writing in my gallery……as you do if you’d like to imagine you were a cool writer. 

It’s possible that I’m a little stressed and rambling today.

So some nice violence and scary stuff on Netflix should sort me out.

Cheers🍷🍷🍷?