It’s not a “cute” trait when you are trying to sell your house and can’t find documents , send the wrong ones, leave out things you think aren’t relevant and then find they are …etc, etc.
I was actually comparing myself to boris johnson today ….not good with detail. ( not much else as far as I am aware.)
It is one of these times when I may look back and say “well , didn’t I learn a lot “……but more likely will be caught muttering, ” I am never ******* doing that again. ”
It is certainly true that ( in my case) stress makes me into a nit wit. I can’t concentrate, forget things , put things in the wrong place, and don’t make sense.
Except maybe when I write things down .
It’s all perfectly simple….I just need someone to hear me.
I am firmly convinced that to have a satisfactory life all I need to do is have an imaginary therapist at the end of a phone, who says …” you are so right…that is awful ( me, sighs with relief…am not an idiot for feeling bad) , then therapist says,” so what were you thinking about doing about it? ( me..so I am clever enough to work out some ways of dealing with this. Yeah, deep down I knew that. ) Therapist…” so what were your ideas, I have time to listen. ( me, am feeling much better, I think I might do this first , in fact now that I have spoken to you and realised I am not stupid and have some ideas , I don’t know why I was so worried.)
So today after waking up at 4am again . I spent quite a lot of time looking for documents and scanning and emailing them. In between I wandered about the house looking for inspiration.
I danced to the ” Happy Song” as that is my rule whenever I hear it. The little cat was not impressed.
And I decided I might make a rag rug so I ordered a rug hook . I might need to buy some hessian ….but before that I’m going to see if I have anything else lying around that would do. I made a rag rug which was a picture of my house in Scotland about 20 years ago. I wrote an article about it and got paid £20.
Well, that was another day. Am not very happy about not having painted anything today, but I have a vague plan in mind for December so that will have to do.