September in Pisticci…..dead slow and then stop……

This morning I think I confirmed about 90% that I can stay in Italy after *******brexit. I won’t even dignify the word with a capital letter.

This last few years have been difficult in lots of ways and I have done my best , but always at the back of mind was the thought that every summer might be my last here thanks to the b word. ( obviously there are other reasons I could have to leave , but none so completely unnecessary. )

I ‘ve got good at making every day count. But I can’t forget the nights and times when I wondered if I would end up homeless. I remember the relief I felt every time it was postponed. And the people ( who had nothing to lose and knew very little) discounting my fears. I knew I wasn’t alone in feeling afraid, and alone.

Now it seems , according to a good friend and what I have read on the internet that as I have been legally resident here for more than 10 years and have ID etc I may need to get one document , though neither of us knows what that is , but we have until December 2021 to find out.

I am not going to go on and on about this as even though this is only a brief mention of something that has, no matter how hard, I tried been there like a pervasive dark shadow for years.

Instead I want to go out and celebrate tomorrow feeling more or less normal and that some government is not going to take my life away from me without a second thought.

However today I have just sat about and did very little. It has felt like I can stop. And so I have.

Tomorrow despite the virus I could start to think about my life here without that particular dark shadow.

Maybe I will be extra inspired to paint the light coming into the dark valley.

I did do one thing today. I decided to paint the shower base white. I think 2 coats of white paint and maybe 4 coats of varnish should do it. And I plan to buy a new mat for it. I have been thinking it doesn’t look very welcoming for some time so this might help.

Someone collected and paid for 3 paintings today. As I wasn’t expecting them I was dressed in a black vest thing which was actually the top of a black dress, painty rolled up leggings and pink fleecy slipper socks with the heels worn out. I’d like to think that my “artistic personality ” made my outfit seem wildly radical….. but am not convinced 🤔

After my lovely evening out last night I am reminded that life does not have to be only work and that a bit of stimulating company is even better than wine.

But talking of wine I have ” inadvertently ” opened the good stuff instead of the ordinary……oh dear😃😃

Work in progress
Cooler evening…….

One comment

  1. Really good news to read Anne, in the short time you’ve been writing this blog and the similar length of time I’ve been reading it, I have picked up your worry and fear re leaving the EU, I’m not even giving it a name, can’t stand the word. I can understand your relief and the need for a nothing day to celebrate with the ‘inadvertant’ wine. Hope you enjoyed the evening and are set up for a more hopeful time, still battling but hopeful. Take care.

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