But going out might be…..

I got my WIFI bill today and at present I can only pay it in the post office. I am not very sure if the post office is open in Pisticci right now. If it isn’t then I would need to get a bus to Marconia and go to the post office there. On monday I think that as long as I have the relevant document I could go. Assuming the buses are running as usual.

I have been so cut off for so long now that I have no idea. Most people here have cars.

I also should go to the doctor’s surgery tonight and pick up a prescription but have persuaded myself that I may as well wait until Monday. I think tomorrow is a holiday.

I am sitting at the table by my door writing this tonight as a step towards doing something different.

I was never terribly keen on going out before all this, but would persuade myself that I needed something or I was really bored. But now it feels like going out is a bit dangerous and also a policeman could ask me why I am out and I know I would look guilty. No matter my reason. ( no one has actually asked me what I am doing any time I’ve been out ….so far.) Then I need to make sure I have a mask and gloves and my document and a pen to finish filling it in as I wasn’t sure how to finish it.

None of this is a really big deal. I have done lots of really scary things in my life so a little thing like this should not bother me….. but after I decided I would wait till monday to go out I was so happy and relaxed.

It’s been a good day. Wrote a nice long email before I got up this morning and then did some more editing. I remembered to do yoga. And enjoyed breakfast outside in my little bar which I am now calling .BAR NUMERO NOVE.

I spent about an hour looking through stuff on twitter but found a very helpful article explaining why no one can be certain about anything relating to this virus . It was quite reassuring and I think only goes to prove that being treated like an adult is much better than being fed a diet of ” there there dear” lies designed for children.

After that I varnished my wisteria. And then feeling inspired ( and it was only 20 mins till lunch time) I started my next big painting by using up all the old paint watered down and covering the whole canvas.

After a small siesta with a book. (Thank goodness am on to another book where hopefully the main character is not such an idiot. ) I remembered to check my post box and found the bill. It might be possible to pay online with an app but I couldn’t get it to work.

I thought that I would just quickly draw in some hills on my painting and have now painted most of them roughly. Am pleased with progress so far. Am still using the ….” I will only do 10 mins work system” to trick myself into working. Maybe I really am very , very lazy.!

After that I persuaded myself that I didn’t need to go out tonight for my prescription and then I would wait till monday.

Which is why I am sitting at the table instead of in my comfy armchair with feet up on the chest , writing this. I am proving to myself that things can change and I will be ok.

What a big feardy!!!

Wine time now