Am not too happy when that is the case. Though when I have worked all day and I sit down at the end and feel I deserve to relax then that’s okay , but after a day like today when I am just glad it’s over then that’s not so good.
It is , I think quite difficult to live alone without a lot of resources. A lot of days I am busy , the sun shines and its easy to feel optimistic.
But today wasn’t one of these days. And it wasn’t because I didn’t try.
I think I really improved my latest portrait today by painting out a lot of outlines. It has been good having given myself so much time before I hand it over.
I went out and took some photos of the fog and later on I went to the supermarket. So got exercise and minimal human contact.
I watched a new artist on youtube and have an idea for a big painting to do using my new water soluble oil paints.
I have actually got a live stream art video on right now. It’s not very relevant to me but I am afraid to turn it off as it will show that I have left and I don’t want to be rude.
It feels like something needs to change. am not sure what. But my resources feel a bit limited.
Anyways thats enough gloom for today.
Better get back to thinking of 5 things to be grateful for every day again.
More “Frost ” tonight I hope ….and maybe a new episode of ” have I got news for you.”.